Keep me in your heart

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I LOVE THIS GIRL.

I GOT THIS TUMBLR TO WORK AGAIN!

HOLY CANOLI!

NOW … I HAVE A DECISION TO MAKE.

Which one to keep updating ….. 

I just feel .. hurt.

I feel angry, sad, annoyed, irritated, aggravated, pissed, depressed, hurt.
But i just don’t know why, nothing happened today to make me feel this way, no one said anything to me to make me feel this way, i just feel this way.

It could be built up emotions that i have hidden or emotions that I need to express? I just don’t know.  What I do know is that its not a pleasant feeling .. I want it to go away .. I don’t like this feeling.

I want to run away.  I’m tired of Virginia Beach.  Same faces everyday.  Don’t get me wrong, I love them and everything but sometimes, its just too much.  I want a fresh start, a clean slate, where no one knows me.  

One day. 

Ugh, here come the waterfalls.

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
 Man, he better have. Rick James -_- .

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
I turn 17 in two weeks, so a year difference isn’t that bad.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?Tonight.  In a Jeep.  Aruging. But happy I was there.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
All the time.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?Uh, not currently.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
There are multiple of songs that reminds me of multiple of people.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
A dress & cardigan.

8. How often do you listen to music?
Every. Single. Day

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
2012 is in 3 months, I don’t think anything drastic will happen.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
Social.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
No?

13. What about ‘R’?
No?

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
No :/

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
If they are strangers, no.  If they are my legit friends, yes.

16. Are you going out of town soon?
i WISH.

17. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday?

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Mhm, a few hours ago.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
Yeah, lighter brown.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
Mhm, there’s two actually.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
I can’t say it here. 

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
I like it.

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
Nope.

24. What are you sitting on right now?
I’m not, i’m laying on my bed.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

YUP .

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
year round.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?Last night? Uh, I think Jan.

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
Every now and then.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
I’m not wearing a shirt.

30. Does anyone hate you?
Probably. 

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?Nope. 

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
NO.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
NO.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?2011, well everything before September.

35. Did you have a dream last night?
….yes.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?10:30ish. 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
I doubt it.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?i THINK so. 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Nah, i doubt it.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
No, school & work.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
Nope.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
Yeah , hannah - helene - savannah & emily.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Plenty of times.

44. What’s the best part about school?
Extra curricular.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Many.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
I use to.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
All the time.

48. Were you single over the last summer?
Yup.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Not at all. 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?Sleeping.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
No no no no no no , although i do tell him that a lot xD

52. Are you nice to everyone?
Basically.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yup.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?Already conquered that.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sort of.

56. Do you think you like someone?
Yeah.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
Yup.

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
i like my girls, but guys just seem less complicated.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
A handful.

60. Do you hate anyone?
Don’t know how to.

61. How’s your heart?
Beating. 

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?Yeah.

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
HAHA oh yes.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
No one.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

Nope.

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I hope not.

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
I thought it was cute, showed he was sensitive.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Yes, stupid marqus -_-

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
RJ , (:

70. How do you look right now?
Decent.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Jan Llanda !

72. Can you commit to one person?
Easy.

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

A handful.

74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Definitely.

75. Did you wake up cranky?
OH YES, hahaha. I was scary.

76. Are you a jealous person?
Depending.

77. Are relationships ever worth it?
Well, yeah.

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Yeah ..

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
Yeah ..

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Sing.

81. Last person you cried in front of?
Myself.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Monica Lombos.

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
I’d sure hope so.

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Talking, haha.

85. Are you over your past?
I think about it a lot.

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
That’s how it always starts.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Monica Lombos.

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
Probably .. I don’t know.

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
I’d be pissed he woke me up at 3 AM.

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Yup.

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
We’ll see.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
Michael Randolph !

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
Nope.

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?I was, we were happy.

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
For the first half of march ..

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
I’m not complaining (:

97. Who do you have texts from?
RJ, Jan, Franco, & Marqus.

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?” how are you & _______ doing “

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Uh, I don’t believe so?

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
MY COUSIN, VYONA <3

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
Nope.

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Oh yes, definitely.